Holy Crap I Missed a lot in a week!

Deb and the kids got home today! Patrick greeted me at the door full of "Daddy, Daddy, Daddy!" which was so great! But what really surprised me is that Kathryn has grown in a week!! Plus she now talks!!! She is full of "Mama" and "Bah Bah Bah!". This has thrilled Deb since the first words out of Patrick's mouth were "Daddy" and he is only now starting to Say "Mom". But even that is a stretch! Anyways... It was great to be together again with them! My wife has lost even more weight. She looks friggin amazing! But those old shorts have to go hun. I'm sorry.

Now... onto the lighter side of things. It is very warm where I work... and my weight tends to fluctuate about 10pounds or so from beginning to end of day. Anywho... When I went to work this morning I put on some shorts that were a lil snug not really thinking it would be a problem. But when I put them back on at lunch.... WOOSH! they were around my ankles in the middle of the cafeteria when I was trying to get an apple juice out of the machine. I had lost 2-4 inches in a span of 5 hours. If I weren't so OK with my body and able to make fun of myself, I may have died of embarassement. Instead... I did a lil strip tease act for the older ladies at the next table while trying to pull up my shorts. Moral of the story.... well... I can't really think of one right now. I never liked morals anyways. So enjoy the story for what it is!

SIMPSONS RULE!!

I just got back from seeing the Simpsons Movie.... IT WAS GREAT! I Laughed.... I cried (because I was laughing so hard)... and I nearly wet myself. It was that good! So for you Simpsons Fans out there... go see it!!

Alright... it seems I have a few more people reading this blog then what I thought... and to those of you that read my blog, here is what I have to say... "That.... is.... so.... sad" hehehehehe

It's weird knowing there are quite a few people who read this! And now i'm kind of glad I never let loose the inner... ummmm... creature that is me on this!!! And that was my original intent but after I wrote the first blog, I decided against it. I tried keeping it light and just about what was going on in my life and not in my mind. SOOOO... to that end, I apologize for the rage that I unleashed a while back. You kind of got a taste what lies beneath the class clown. I thought about deleting the entry but I left it in as a reminder to those of you who know me and a warning to those of you just getting to know me, that looks can be deceiving... and that I'm not like those Germans that are all "smiles and sunshine" (Sorry to any of you who are germans). I have feelings too and although I tend to bury them under smiles and jokes, they are still there and are still very real... and eventually it gets to be too much and I snap! I know I know... not the healthiest thing in the world to be doing. Especially for a guy that handles Radioactive materials all day long!! That's like telling a postal worker that his wife left him..... for the dog that always attacked him on his route... and burned his baseball card collection.... THEN handing him a gun and telling him he has to work the holiday monday at normal pay or else he's fired. OK OK... maybe it's not THAT bad but it's bad enough! The good thing is if I ever develope a tumor from all my inner turmoil that I keep bottled up.... It's a good bet I've got something at work that will zap the lil bastard out of existence!! ALWAYS GOT TO LOOK ON THE POSITIVE SIDE OF THINGS!! hehehehe

Alright... I got a bit silly there but you people catch my meaning. It all basically comes down to this, I'm a pretty easy going guy and I forgive a lot (Who needs the stress/baggage??). But don't ever lie to me no matter what the reason. I'm an adult and I'll deal with whatever you throw at me accordingly. I've gone through too damn much when people lie to me and I'm never going back to that dark place.

Pretty simple yes?? DON'T LIE TO ME. 4 little words. And i'm sure you all feel the same way!

Sooooooooooooo..... This will probably be it for the heavy stuff (and I use the term lightly... oh jeez... Heavy Light Stuff??) And I'll also try to update this more now that I know people are interested in my life. Here's a taste of things to come.... "Shaun's Commissioning Project is done and full production begins... HELLO 64 HOUR WORK WEEKS :(" and the ever so popular "Shaun and his lesson in WSIB work claims". Oh Joy... I can't wait for that particular one!! NOT!!!

Good Night Everyone...

Blog Explosion!

Well here I am writing again. It's got to be some kind of record for me! Anyways... It's 2:47am and I can't sleep. Those damn clown's are hovering and they look hungry! Actually, it's my mind that is racing again. It's been awhile since it's done this and it usually comes up with some pretty insightful things when it's like this. And this time is no different!! However, I'm not going to blog about them this time. I'm going to simmer on them and refine it a little before I say anything. And even then, it'll probably just be to my darling wife. So sorry blog readers! Kind of dangling a carrot in front of you then eating it in front of you! hehehe

Anyways... I should figure out how to get to sleep. I can't go and read Harry Potter because it's not boring and i'll probably read it till the sun comes up! I'll figure something out.

Get Together

Well... I had a really great time seeing some old friends today. It was just what I needed to forget about this week. Ron and his wife Catherine came up. It was my first time meeting Catherine in person and she's a real peach :) hehehe Carrie and her fiance Jason (Jay) also came up and it was great seeing them as well. I hadn't seen Carrie in about 7 years but it was just like old times. She's so easy going. Jason was just as easy going and they make a great couple. Justin (Carrie's cousin) also was able to make it up and aside from his voice a bit deeper, he hasn't changed a bit! It's been nearly 15 years since I saw him last!! We basically sat around the pool the whole time just talking and making fun of each other. The only thing I would have changed is having Deb and the kids there. I showed them the DVD pictures Lisa made of Patrick for his christmas present and they thought it was excellent! They all can't wait to meet Deb and the kids and I can't wait for Deb to meet them. They are very down to earth and are VERY easy going so they are easy to start conversations with. That always seemed to be the hard thing to do for most of my other friends wives. Anyways, next time we are all in Orangeville, we're all to head over to visit Carrie and Jason (They are just a couple minutes away) AND we're to drive to fergus to visit the Kellers.

I CAN'T WAIT FOR DEB TO MEET THEM!!

Alright People... Be Honest Here. Who Reads my Blog???

Alright.... I've calmed down a bit so people can stop worrying. I still agree with everything I said. But my stress levels have dropped... Granted that may be because of the bunch of drugs I just took to knock my pain levels down in my head. But who cares... the ends justify the means don't they?!?! :)

Anyways... My supper just walked up to the door.

Thankyou to all of you that messaged me as soon as they read my blog. It was what I needed and didn't even realize it.

Alright.... here's my post.

I AM SO PISSED OFF RIGHT NOW!... and hurt! My so called friends have once again left me out of the loop so to speak. This has been happening for a long time now... I can actually give you a date to within a couple months but for this rants sake, it's been years and leave it at that! I'm going to keep this intentionally vague so i'm sorry for those out there that actually read my blog. I'm not really sure there is a point to keeping it vague because the friends I'm talking about probably don't give a shit about what goes on in my life anyways. Just as long as it doesn't effect them or their plans! Well Fuck Them!! I'm tired of this shit!! I'm tired of ALWAYS having to make the effort!! I'm not even really sure how many close friends I actually have now that I think about it... aside from my wife who doesn't count (no offence meant hun but you know what I mean).... ohhhh.... a big fat goose egg comes to mind! I used to be everyone's friend!! The person everyone would go to because I could keep confidences. The person who could always make you laugh even when you were feeling like shit. I thought that's what best friends are for... WRONG!! When I hit a rough spot in my life, most of my friends bailed on me. Some stuck around and did their best to make things right... to help me through it. And for that I'm grateful. But soon afterwards, they started drifting away which you would think was logical for highschool friends and even public school friends as they grow up. But you see... they just drifted away from me... for the most part, the ties between THEM grew stronger but I was left out in the cold. Like I had some sort of fucking disease. Now and then I'd get a pity look, an invitation to a old best friends wedding, a phone call then and now... almost as a courtesy. But in a lot of ways that's worse. To find out about get togethers and how much fun they had... After the fact. Every now and then someone would slip and say "You should have been there" or "Where were you?!?". I just want to say "Next time, get your stories straight so I don't find out".

At first it didn't bother me too much and I figured if I make a greater effort, call people more, set things up more, I would be someone they would want to hang around with again and all this would go away. But it has been YEARS AND I'M FUCKING DONE WITH IT! Who needs close friends when they can so easily treat you like shit!!??! I've got one more thing to do with this lot and I'll do it like I do everything in life, to the best of my abilities. But when that's done, they can all piss off. I'm not going to be treated like that anymore by them or anyone else. No One Should.