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Productive Pointlessness

A Final Decision...

Those are words that are applied to a lot of decisions in life that are not necessarily as "Final" as we initially perceive. The decision maybe "Important" and "Life Altering", such as to get married, baptized, returning to school, etc... but there are few decisions in life that are truly "Final". And when the decision is upon us, it can be a lot more daunting then some of those "Important" decisions that can pop up so often in life.

I sadly had to make one of those "Final" decisions this week. I had to decide whether it was time to put my cat Nikki "to sleep" which I've come to accept as the nice term for "having her killed". I've weighed the pros and cons for quite a while now and have come to the "Final" decision that it is time. I can go into the whole list of medical reasons and other considerations for why I made this decision... but I don't feel it is really that necessary. Normal people don't have a family member (and that is what she was) euthanized for the hell of it. Unfortunately for me, the reasons are cold comfort to me and simply do not help with the guilt and pain that goes on inside. I've also come to the understanding (at least for myself) that in order for me to live with this "Final" decision, I've got to accept the guilt and pain that I'm feeling because I think it makes me a better person. If I didn't have this feeling, I think I would be a monster.

Anyways... as you can see, I'm rambling.

So today... at about 5:15, I felt my cat's heart race and stop in my hands while her eyes glazed over. I had to be there for her because I believe that if I could make this decision, I would have to accept the image of her last moments of life.

I Loved My Cat... despite the fact she was a cold hearted bitch.

I also hope I don't have to make many more "Final" decisions in my life because... once you've made them, there is no turning back.

Holidays Begin!!

Actually they began a couple days ago. My restrictions at work were extended for my tendonitis and I was getting bored sitting around all day so I just booked off a couple days extra and left :)

So... Here i am relaxing!! It's great :)

The bathroom is pretty much finished! A couple cosmetic things to do like put up mirrors and a door stop. Maybe a bit of caulking but that's it. Here are the pics.




Not planning on doing too much for the holidays though. Mainly spend it with the kids and Deb. It seems every time I get time off, it's been spent doing home repairs and the such which really blows. When I was doing the deck, we'd start first thing in the morning and only come in for meals and end the day when the kids were already in bed. Blech. This time, it's about the kids :) I think Deb and I are going to take them to story book park in Owen Sound next wednesday. And just goof around here the rest of the week.

In sadder news. I just got a call from my mom saying my sister was in an accident. I won't get into details about the accident but it could have been a lot worse. She has a broken wrist and a very sore hip. GET BETTER BOO!!!!!

Anywho... that's it for now.